Sigh

Here I go again...(sigh)

Why do I keep doing this to myself?
Must I keep torturing myself?

Do I like the aggravation?

I just want someone to call my own.
Is that too much to ask for?

But yet after what I went through last time, do I really want to go though that all over again?

Should I open the most intimate parts of myself just to have you be scared off too?

Should I go into  wherever this is we have and guard my heart with a locked door? Or should I give you the key to open my heart?

Looks like only time knows...(sigh)